Tuesday, December 30, 2008

coretan c pesalah



aku cuba menjadi seorang happy2 jak...
tp ianya ndak dapat hilangkan rasa bersalah di dalam diri...
bukan sebab aku buat salah (harap tedalah)....
juz aku rasa aku sdh makin len....
aku bukannya seorang yg macam dlu...
ataupun easily to get along.....
even kwn2 aku yg closed dgn aku pun skali 2 jak aku cntct dorg....
aku lebih suka menyendiri...
malah aku bosan dgn apa yang telah aku buat selama ini....
kembalikan la c awan yang dulu.....

rasa bersalah juga banyak disebabkan hasil yg aku inginkan bukan seperti
aku mahukan....seem me getting worse adalah....
i oso strt to hate myself....senang rasa rendah diri....
mulai juga rasa uncomfortable dgn diri sendiri.....
then i want to say apologize kepada sepa2 jak la.....
ada kaitan tau teda pun aku ndak kisah.....

awan mode: bad

Thursday, December 25, 2008

sekian kalinya....



muka terbaru...time ni masih demam lagi...ahakz....

lorrr...lamanya ndak post pa2....
time aku type ni subuh2 la weiii...
coz ada keja kena buat so pg nnt barulah aku tido.....
time cutiku yang ku sangka ndak kan best ni rupanya best plak...
ahakz...lepak2 dgn mmbr lama aku....
rindu gila la dgn dorg....
best jg pas berjumpa....

saja jak ni....
mau kestau aku baru jak sembuh dari demam ckit2....
ku rasa ni la mcm demam aku 1st tahun ni...macam lah kot....
lorrr...apanya ndak demam tido kena tempias air hujan n aku malas mau gerak coz
sdh tido kan...teda mood mau pindah...
sbnrnya aku tido d luar rumah....
pas majlis beramai-ramai makcek aku kawen habis kira2 jam 3 pg sdh...
pas kemas2 ckit baring jak la namanya.....
time tu kawen di rumah pangkat datuk aku la....
so coz rumahnya sdh full aku pun tido luar atas sofa la katakan.....
pa lagi....bangun pg2 2 mcm sthng wrong jak kpala ku....
sign2 demam sdh melanda....
pas 2 badan plak sakit...apa ndak menari2 sampai ndak ingat dunia...
sambung menyampung...
pas 1 sambung lagi satu yang len....
tp mmg cam gitu la kawen orang bajau banyak tarian2....
tp tarian mcm joget, tarian bajau yg telah dimodenkan ikut usia remaja kami kunun...
tp mmg best la hampir semua family ada time 2...
mmg best la mcm raya plak kumpul ramai2....

mau bg tau lagi time aku menaip ni juga tandanya aku sdh tidak tidur malam selama 5 hari jak....apa lagi pg jak yang dibantai.....
lorr...tp yang menyedihkan ada satu lagi tp malas mau cakap buat tension
adalah la.....

wah ndak lama mau balik kk sdh...
tp aku macam malas plak mau balik ni....
macam seronok plak klu dipanjangkan lagi cuti ni....ahakz....
bah sdh2 la mencarut 2.....
pa2 pun selamat tahun baru (tp aku ndak penah sambut la) coz teda pa2 pun jg 2...

Saturday, November 29, 2008

cuti, cuti, cuti

terfikir mau buat pa time cuti ni....
tp nmpknya cutiku kali ni di rumah jak la ni....
tp aku baru jak balik dari sipitang atas prgrm rakan muda di kampung bangsal...
teda gambar mau di upload coz satu pun teda dengan aku....
tp pa2 pun mmg siok la di situ....
rancang CNY nnt aku mau pg sana....
time tu musim durian ma potong padi sdh....
ceh apa kaitan....durian mana la aku makan....

wah cuti ni aku mau blajar bawa kreta la....
kasi terer lagi la...
aku rasa aku da bleh bawah tp ndak yakin lagi laweiii....
ni la mau kasi master ni....
klu bapa aku brani bg pnjm kreta dia la....
malunya aku 21 pun msh ndak tau gik memandu...apa kes ni....
susah la klu mau enjoy2 nnt....
klu bleh bawa kreta sendiri baru best....

bah pa2 pun hapy holiday....
cuti2 malaysia yg cuti di malaysia jak la....

awan mood= slumber+ blur

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

tidak puas hati

adeiii...
banyak la plak sdh habis exam ni...
mmbr2 aku pun len banyak jg yang sdh habis...
lorr...aku hbs ni tepat2 jumaat ni...
last hari exam jg....

sedih jg aku la antara org pertama ambik exm sem ni....
tp paling lambat la jg habis....
adeiiii.....
bah..ada 2 lagi paper aku ni....
khamis kim ino 2....
pas 2 jumaat KP kimia....
tp sem ni rasa best la jg....
stdy tidak la mcm sem2 lepas...
yang kadang2 ada 2 paper dalam 1 hari...
nmpknya sem ni jarak2 la jg paper2 aku....
so kurang la tension ckit....
tp jerawat tetap jg kuar...lols....
mknanya mmg tension la jg 2....tp kurang jak la kan....

bah sapa2 yg sudah hbs atau bakal habis 2 happy holiday tuk korg haaa....
aku pas exam pun akan balik lambat....
coz pg sipitang prgrm Rakan Muda....
pas tu tolong mmbr buat satu keja....
so pas 2 baru la balik....ahakz....
so mgkn dalam 29 0r 30 november la jg aku balik ni...
lorr....

awan mood= boring, sleepy

Saturday, November 15, 2008

terlupa la plak...

seem im owez told my mood.....
but my post b4 im forgot....
huhuhuhu.....
awan mood=sleepy+tired....boring a bit

apa bah ko post ni awan...teda2 wooo....

adeiiiii.....

adeiiiii...
banyak eh kerja ni.....
mggu dpn ni ada 3 paper ni....
n kena urus lagi mcm 2 prgrm ni....
tp urus2 yg simple2 lagi la coz sem dpn baru strt 2 pun prgrm...
tp mcm mana pun aku tetap penat bah jg ni.....
adeiiiii...

tambahan mengantuk lagi.....
riso ngan result aku gik sem ni...
sem ni makin banyak plak prgrm aku dari sem2 lepas...
ndak pandai insaf2 ni.....
adeiiiii...

bah sudahlah.....
mau sambung stdy wlupn td mcm teda stdy pun jg....
adeiiiii...

Saturday, November 8, 2008

my recent playlists

david archuleta - crush
mariah carey - i stay in love
jason mraz - lucky + the dynamo of vilition + make it mine
pussycat dolls - i hate this part right here
remioromen - 3th march, konayuki, rhythm
jennifer hudson - if this isnt love
utada hikaru - the prisioner of love + boku wa kuma
faizal tahir - sempurna
ashlee simpson - Ragdoll
natasha bedingfiled - angel
K - Only human
Hangry and angry - kill me kiss me
Blake Lewis - break anotha

looking for others song.....

n recently im trying to download a malay songs....
mostly all the song based on hotfm+xfreshfm charts song....
my bad mostly all the song seem im never listened b4....

awan mood=boring+studying+warbooking

8th Nov 2008

gosh...im extremely tired n too sleppy....
reason cant sleep last nite....
juz have a sleep at 5am....
n at 9 gonna wake up coz got meeting at library at 930....
but the meeting just started after 1030 pm...
n i came to the meetinng at 11....
coz no bus lorrr....
hav a bus but need to filled the minyak 1st....
so the driver ddnt let us naik bus 2....

damn im so tired....
hope after this have a good sleep....
exctly i wanna stdy pengantar falsafah...
but no mood oredy so juz skip it tonite....
k la....tatatata....

mood=awan so tired+sleepy

Friday, November 7, 2008

Sangatsu Kokonoka (9th March)------>my faveret japanese song ever...sung by Remioromen

sung by Remioromen....J-rock band

diz song rock...superb....
juz after heard once i oredy like diz song...ahakz.....
diz song oso a theme song for 1 litre of tears
or in japanese Ichi Rittoru no Namida(1リットルの涙)...

lyrics....

Nagareru kisetsu no mannaka de
Futo hi no nagasa wo kanjimasu
Sewashiku sugiru hibi no naka ni
Watashi to anata de yume wo egaku

Sangatsu no kaze ni omoi wo nosete
Sakura no tsubomi wa haru he to tsudzukimasu

Afuredasu hikari no tsubu ga
Sukoshizutsu asa wo atatamemasu
Ookina akubi wo shita ato ni
Sukoshi tereteru anata no yoko de

Arata na sekai no iriguchi ni tachi
Kidzuita koto wa hitori ja nai tte koto

Hitomi wo tojireba anata ga
Mabuta no ura ni iru koto de
Dore hodo tsuyoku nareta deshou
Anata ni totte watashi mo sou de aritai

Sunabokori hakobu tsumuji kaze
Sentaku mono ni karamarimasu ga
Hirumae no sora no shiroi tsuki wa
Nan daka kirei de mitoremashita

Umaku wa ikanu koto mo aru keredo
Ten wo aogeba sore sae chiisakute

Aoi sora wa rinto sunde
Hitsuji kumo wa shizuka ni yureru
Hanasaku wo matsu yorokobi wo
Wakachiaeru no de areba sore wa shiawase

Kono saki mo tonari de sotto hohoende

Hitomi wo tojireba anata ga
Mabuta no ura ni iru koto de
Dore hodo tsuyoku nareta deshou
Anata ni totte watashi mo sou de aritai

translation....

in the middle of the flowing seasons,
I suddenly feel the length of the days.
during the days when it is too busy,
you and I sketch out our future.

Placing their love on March's wind,
the sakura buds continue on through spring.

rays of an overflowing light,
little by little, warm up the morning.
After giving a large yawn,
I'm a little shy being by your side.

Standing at a new world's entrance,
I now notice that I'm not alone.

If I close my eyes, you are there.
under my eyelids you live.
How strong it could become
As for you and me, I want to be together

The dust carried by a whirlwind,
entwines with the laundry to be done,
Just before noon the white moon in the sky
I was somehow fascinated by how pretty it was

Although there are times when I can't do it right,
if I look up at the sky, even being that small

The blue sky is sharply clear
the sheeplike clouds quietly sway.
the joy of waiting for flowers to bloom
if it's sharing that with you, that is happiness

In the future as well gently smile next to me

If I close my eyes, you are there.
under my eyelids you live.
How strong it could become
As for you and me, I want to be together

lyric from http://www.animelyrics.com/jpop/remioromen/sangatsukokon.htm

other recommended song Konayuki n Rhytm....
n im still searching others song.....lor...

NOVEMBER

wah bulan 11 la sdh....
huhuhuhu....lama sdh tak post pa2....
teda idea gak pun + sekarang ni pun tengah exam....
baru jak hbs 1st week exam ku....
ada 3 paper aku telah duduki....
yg 1st mcm ok, yg 2nd mati kesusahan yg 3rd ni plak ndak tau la macam mana
mau describe....mcm senang tp macam susah gak....ahakz.....
tp yg 3rd paper ni yg aku risau....ahakz....midterm aku mcm mana critanya sekarang ni....

perubahan yang berlaku sekarang ni....
aku sdh jarang buka friendster...ahakz.....
layan jak facebook....coz ada game cambest jak sana...
time aku type ni pun baru jak aku level 18 ni....
maximum aku rasa level 50....
huhuhu....pas aku sampai tahap 2 boleh la aku bermaharaja lela
menyerang2 nnt...ahakz....tp ni menang jenis game yg aku minat....
1st macam build kingdom la kunuk....
pas 2 kumpul2 askar n serang sapa2 jak....
klu menang ok jg..klu kalah sabar jak la....
bah kwn2ku yg teda facebook 2 join la haa....

laa...lupakan la 2...
yg penting exam ni skrg....
2nd week best gak la coz ada 1 paper jak...
n 3rd week nnt baru la ada 3 paper....
baru la mantap aku balik mggu 2....
paling riso adalah KP Bio....
aku rasa terlalu skema la 2....
susah la aku dpt markah...
pelbagai aspek ditengok utk dpt markah...
salah satunya tulisan kenalah sammat....ni la kelemahan aku sejak sekolah rendah....
coz cita2 dlu mau jd doktor konon la....
stail menulis pun kena tepat...hujung n pangkalnya....
klu setakat lecturer 2 ambil kira kami punya jwpn ok jg....
ni yg kena lihat pelbagai sudut....
lagi satu aku blum hantar lagi surat ketidakhadiran ke kuliah n tutorial....ahakz...
2 2 pun 2 aku dtg coz aku blum balik kk coz teda bus kosong di semporna n tertido di bilik coz kepenatan....
laaaa....time 2 aku aku tak dpt tidur malam....2 yg boleh terlajak tertido 2....
n takkan la aku kena hantar surat coz aku tertido la plak...
reason 2 sangat la tidak kukuh kan....sabar jak la.....

pa2 pun aku kena fokus dgn final kali ni....
da lah pointer aku pun cukup2 makan (wah terus terangnya)
so kena study la ni kan....
naikkan pointer balik...amin.....

bah to member2 aku goodluck jg tuk korg haaa.....
stdy bek2....('_')V

Saturday, October 25, 2008

SEGERAK BORNEO 3

walaupn sdh kira2 lbh semggu prgrm ni tp aku mau jg post di blog ni....
segerak borneo 3 plak kali ni dibuat d SMK tenom......
mmg best la prgrm di tenom ni....
banyak kenangan yg lucu2 hahahahaha.....
lucuka 2 haaa.....aku jak kali kelucuan ni.....



seperti biasalah aku dijadikan pengarah teknikal.....
saja jak 2 aku ndak mau tkr portfolio...
best bah teknikal 2 bagi aku la......
keja dia senang tp macam susah hahahaha......
ok seperti biasa jg tmbln aku c boron....
kasihan la dia jg ndak dpt jadi fasi coz aku halang kali.....
bukan ndak mau bg dia dia...
aku masih ndak yakin klu kerja sendiri teknikal 2.....
walupn dri segerak borneo 1 lagi aku buat......
tp klu ada lagi yg ke 4, kalo c dia berminat aku benarkan la.....
so sapa bakal ketua fasilitator trus tanya dia jak ha.....
ndak payah la melalui aku....
(chewah mcm aku plak pengarah teknikal klu ada segerak borneo 4 ni)

pa2 pun mmg best la jg di SMK tenom 2....
walaupun kami telah beri kejutan yg terlebih sangat dengan dorg.....
besala dgn lakonan mantap c garung sama c vera ni.....
di tambah dgn pelakon ndak diundang iaitu aku....
mmg menjadi la lakonan 2.....
pelajar ni pun takut.....tp itu hanyalah lakonan semata2....
lagi 1 pelajar SMK tenom ni best bah bg support terhadp prgrm yg kami buat....
yg best mcm besala senaman yg aku ajar 2.....
malatop geng.....

wah harap la ada kesinambungan bg prgrm ni....
best bah buat prgrm mcm ni....
cuma yg aku malas adalah dtg meeting ni.....
sdhla aku ndak pernah skip meeting ni......
dorg kena bg aku hadiah bah ni...
dorg ni punyalah jahat ndak mmbalas kebaikkan ku ni......
lagi 1 join segerak borneo ni mcm prgrm jalan2 dgn mmbr.....
kerana some of them are my best buddy......
kira jalan2 free sambil kena blanja KFC oleh pengarah...



huhuhuhuhuu.....
wahh...cuma skrg stdy tuk exm jak la ni...teda prgrm sdh.....
rehat2.....bah kwn2 ku skalian best luck tuk exm korg haaa......
stdy jgn ndak stdy.....

Laporan Bulanan

wahhh....dalam bulan ni banyak btul yg telah aku buat.....
tension+siok kebanyakkannya la.....

dalam bulan ni la jg aku 1st time pg tenom....
sambil singgah di keningau jg.....
huhuhuhu....dpt tgk sawah padi yg diimpikan.....hahahaha.....
tp aku mau masuk sawah padi jak blum.....
almaklumlah besa dgn laut jauh jak...
bajau la katakan.....

dalam bulan ni lah jg banyak asgmnt yg kena sbmit.....
pas hantar punyalah lega.....
otak ringan ni balik....
best gila.....tggl la kena stdy tuk exm jak la ni......
ya itu dia peperiksaan hanya disekitar sudut......

wah...yg paling best tentulah aku rasa sangat bertuah coz duit aku bertambah...huhuhuhu....
bukan jak sbb duit raya dri PTPTN tu.....
tp dari sumber len lagi lah....jgn jeles
mau pg shppng beg or sandal ni.....
tp fikir2 tgkla dlu.....
ndak best jg shppng sendiri ni.....
so tggu la sem dpn time 2 smua pun kaya2.....
bah kpd mmbr2 aku jom kita berjoli sem dpn ha dgn duit PTPTN.....

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

tension coz banyak keja.............

banyaknya keja mggu ni kena kasi sttle.....
sakit kpala dibuatnya......
exam+asgmnt(ada 2) = gila

terpaksa siapkan gak coz mmgu ni last submit ni benda.....
so struggle gila babi la ni mengasi siap......
lalalala...tension2......
sapa mau blanja aku tgk wyg kestau ha.....
bleh kurang2kan tension.....

Thursday, October 9, 2008

reviews about what i really interest about

im gonna talking about music.....
this topic i thnk so far dat i can really engaged wit.....
i can say dat im a musicnerd......
i can stay at my room 4 all day wit juz listen to the music....
kinda crazy rite....seems more than 100 songs(maybe 200) in a day i will layan2 all da song......


recently i listen to pussycat dolls and jason mraz songs from their latest album......
both of them hav a very good album 4 me......
my top artists now
1. pussycat doll
2. jason mraz
3. jordin sparks
4. david archuleta
5. faizal tahir
6. mariah carey
7. utada hikaru
8. morning musume
9. natasha bedingfield
10. estranged
11. plague of happiness
12. maroon 5
13. the all-american reject
14. hoobastank
15. chris brown

i knw its would change i no time......yuppp reasons is...im waiting 4 a next upcoming album from the all-american reject and hoobastank...oso from david archuleta and david cook.

but if i gonna talking about malaysian music maybe seems im a bit ketinggalan kot.....
juz i knw so far malaysian artists recently produced album are fabulous cat, estranged and faizal tahir....
and them are totally music genius.....too creative for our malaysian artists.....
n about our underground band them make our music industry produced much more color......
juz maybe not recognized coz more focusing in music underground but mostly them are totally osome...juz the prblm are i ddnt knw their name.....hahahaha....juz listen at xfresh fm.....
i salute wit this station coz more focusing on underground and malaysian artist.....4 those hav a cd of our underground artists can u let me borrow it 4 a while or juz tell me how to get it expclly frm the easiest way....yuppp by downloading it k......
others radio station such as era n hotfm now im rarely to listen coz of the indonesian songs....
i think both diz station terover play lagu2 indon n i thnk not a good sign 4 our lembab malaysian music industri.....n wat i hate most they do a segment juz focusing at indonesian song...WTF.....
pliz help our artist 1st k b4 wanna do it like dat.....
if i comparing malaysian and indonesian songs, our songs much more better. we can listen variety of it.....wat i dislike about the indonesian songs seem i juz heard the same beat of songs....or if i listen the songs in the album after listens 4 or more songs it will make me bored....no such a variety of music arrangement at all......but mostly the main track of the their album...yuppp...mostly a good song n i can give a some star expclly frm letto, dewa n samson juz the prblm is i juz CANT layan lama2 all the track.....mengantuk.....

but now im more interested follows the american n japanese music n oso some malaysian artists.....
btw lets support our music industy.....next post i wanna post about the songs i usually heard now.....c ya......

Friday, September 26, 2008

warkah untuk raya ni

yeah....aku akan balik ke rumah halamanku besok sabtu (27 sept 08).
tp masalah timbul plak satu masalah. ku sangaka aku akan bergerak pada mlm tp rupanya2 pada pagi la.....pakaian baru cuci plak.....la takut la plak ndak sempat kering sblm balik bsuk pagi ni.
apa2 pun aku tak la riso sangat coz yg penting balik rumah....urusan di sini dilupakan jak la dlu....
asgment n test tggula pas aku dtg UMS k......

so sempena menjelang bulan syawal ni aku ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya aidilfitri buat kamu k....trutama kawan2 di semporna, di UMS (trutama cosmate aku n kwn2 dri KML n kwn seprogram) n para housemate aku....sorry internet kamu slow sbb aku bnyk dwnload crita....sorry k.....len kali buat lagi.....hihihihi........

waahhhh....cuma aku rasa raya dah tak best mcm dlu...yalakan time kecik2 bleh jak semberang2 pg beraya rumah org ni n dpt gak duit raya....tp skrg ni sabar jak la aku...so planning aku balik raya ni mau pg beraya di rumah2 member n bekas cikgu2 aku......

k la selamat menyambut raya ni k.....
n aku mengucapkan maaf zahir n batin.....
free2 tu dtg la rumah aku....
huhuhuhuhu.......

ni kad raya utk korg...aku tak pandai design la so paham2 jak la dri mana smbrnya ni....
selamat beraya......

Sunday, September 21, 2008

release tension

Stress is the consequence of the failure to adapt to change, specifically the inability to respond appropriately to emotional or physical threats to the organism, whether actual or imagined.Common stress symptoms include irritability, muscular tension, inability to concentrate and a variety of physical reactions, such as headaches and accelerated heart rate.

Stress management encompasses techniques intended to equip a person with effective coping mechanisms for dealing with psychological stress, with stress defined as a person's physiological response to an internal or external stimulus that triggers the fight-or-flight response. Stress management is effective when a person utilizes strategies to cope with or alter stressful situations.

Inilah definsi yg aku check di wikipedia. Reason aku buat begitu yuppp..... coz im stress now.....got some idea why im tension rite nw....those my fren sdh tentu tahu....what should i do haaaaaa.......usually im hang out at town juz sit at one place cuci mata n usually hav my fren accompany me....but here i cant do it...aiiiyaa...im really tension to thinking about it.....its there any good cadangan to me. tmrw i got macroteachng n im totally not ready at all. wanna replace wit my grup mmbr but he dont want it.....aiya......so what should i do...so buat jak la kan. juz try my best la tuk bsuk.......n 1 imprtant thing i wanna sleep but its kinda hard 4 nw...got many work to do.

many advices i got frm my fren...n some i think yuppp i must do it that...but oso some advices juz crazy i thnk....ini bulan puasa la n absolutely knew that a joke frm him. Mau manage stress ni pun susah wooo...mesti kena tempatnya.

p/s: 4 those not understand juz 4get it you have been read diz stupid story.

i wanna mandi laut la.............................

Friday, September 19, 2008

my life in UMS

masuk semester ni aku sdh lbh kurang 2 tahun lebih stdy di ums dan sekarang ni di tahun ke 3.
masih ada lagi 3 semester kena habiskan sebelum graduasi....sangat la aku ndak sabar ni.....
happy jg la stdy di sini...jumpa geng2 yg gila2....housemate yg baik2 belaka.....chewahh....
blog ni aku buat macam diari aku la jg...so klu mau tau cerita apa2 dari aku so bleh jak view blog ni k....

so far stdy aku mantap syak la sbjct2nya tp skor atau tidak biar aku jak la tau.....
n yg aku tersangatlah happy coz jumpa dgn kawan2 satu kuliah yg gila babun ni smua...
mmg best la korg ni. kwn2 seprogram aku gak....kamu pun mmg la kawan2 yg baik jg.....
k la jumpa lagi di cerita yg len k.....jgn lupa la bagi komen2 pedas kamu 2 haa.....

lihatlah k gambar2 aku berada di ums ni



ketika kemerdekkan ke 50 di ums dgn baju pertandingan lagu2 patriotik


larian rakan muda dari papar ke UMS




MPI



Segerak borneo 1 di SMK Abdullah Semporna


segerak Borneo 2 di SMK Balung, Tawau


Pertandingan Lagu2 Patriotik dan 1st time jadi Pengarah Progrm...Penat gila aku dibuatnya

cobaan pertama

masih lagi blank2 mau buat blog ni...
nanti2 la klu post akan dtg aku try yg terbaik...
ni pun buat2 sendiri jak...
teda org mengajar....
apa pun welcome to my blog...
and thanks to view it k...
huhuhuhu....happy ramadhan al mubarak....